Someone was asked to leave with immediate effect yesterday. She’s one of the few that I would actually maintain a friendship with outside the bank. I know stuff like that is inevitable, but it’s just so discouraging and de-motivating. Though I already expected it and appreciate that she came to me to tell me personally before the rest found out, I still can’t help but to feel a little sad.

Y and I treated her to Japanese lunch and I’m so bloated. I’m still sick from last night, and I feel like throwing out. I’m just feeling so uncomfortable and the cold air is making me nauseous. I think the medicated oil is causing my giddiness to worsen. I’m so drained and tired. While most people were on leave in December, taking year end holidays and merry making over festivities, I was slogging my guts out, preparing dry lengthy reports, submissions, plans, frameworks and forecasts for my bank. I’m so so tired. Even my getaway to Bali during CNY period may not materialize.

I spoke to ANZ yesterday and UOB just called. I’m not planning much now, but let’s just see if it leads to anything. Wherever the Lord leads me, He will surely guide and prosper me.

Yes, I’m gonna whine about my weight again. I eat too much junk. I feel FAT.

I know I promised to try to complain less about things this year, but surely I need to have a tacit way of venting my frustrations?

I’m hungry again…