Evy-day is over and I'm officially yet another year older. Even though they all say that age is only a number, it does make a real difference to how I feel.

I've received many cards, presents, flowers, chocolate cakes and well wishes from dear people around me. While these make me happy, birthdays always set me in low melancholic doldrums. The day just kinda plays up all my fears for the uncertain future, including ageing, my inner insecurities, and losing what I have right now. I don't want to lose my abilities, my family, friends, health, beauty, career, money, lifestyle, et cetera. It's a scary thought for me, that possessions on earth are so tangible and fragile. I'm not dazzled by the greed of avarice, but isn't it just a fine line between practicality and materialism?

I have to admit that I am caught up in the mad rat-race.

I also know exactly where to find my peace and solace, it's just getting there, and choosing to stay there.

Well, I did have a good break at Banyan Tree Bintan over the weekend, where I literally did nothing but eat, sleep, and watch DVDs. It was so serene, calm, and relaxing. The beautiful landscape set in lush vegetation by the sea was absolutely breathtaking. Coupled with little luxuries like an in-villa jacuzzi and thoughtful service from the ever-smiling resort staff made my trip a definite restful getaway.

Nonetheless, life still has to go on after my little holiday. I am determined to make this year a better one. No resolutions, just living by a little more faith everyday. Cheers!