I've had a variety of outdoor-sy activities over the past week. Just got back from Bintan last evening with a bit of sunburn, which is rare because I hardly ever tan. I also went cycling with my 2 teenage cousins and tried prawning in a Pasir Ris fish farm for the first time last Sunday. My catch consisted of only two miserable prawns in almost 3 hours. Hardly enough to make a meal. Needless to say, it was already stretching my thin patience a bit but overall still a good experience to have. I was also hanging out at Cafe del Maar playing silly games with my friends. So refreshing to have such stress relieving things to do sometimes.

I finally have time now to wind down for a bit of self-reflection. I feel bad somehow. I want to treat my grandma and mum better, but I tend to get irritable when they take too long to decide on one simple issue or ask me the same question one trillion times within the same day. I know that their intentions are good and they just want to be cautious and prudent, but catering to their hesitancy and assuring their insecurities all the time can be very draining. I really don't want to seem imperious or curt though.

Have I too much pride now that I lack compassion? Or do I place too much emphasis on work competence and influence that I even expect that from my family members? I shouldn't, and I don't want to go there. Don't want to regret my actions when they're not around me one day.

Should get my feet firmly planted on the ground at all times...